Response From Government

I wanted to give you all an update on my legal case, but I feel pretty emotional and find it hard to put my feelings down right now. On Monday when a response from the government was due I found out they asked for more time because one of the prosecutors would be traveling for a week out of the 45 days they were given to respond. I guess it’s not surprising the government would want to delay a bit, but I feel the trauma I suffered was severe and deserves their utmost attention.

April 22, 2014

On April 22, 2014 I was put in a county jail for the first time in my life, I spent a week at Davis County Jail which started a nightmare that is impossible to describe.

April 22, 2015

On April 22, 2015 one year later to the day, I self surrendered at FCI Dublin to serve a 7 year sentence imposed as a consequence of a guilty plea that never should have been entered into.

May 2, 2014

On May 2, 2014 I was taken to Weber County Jail for a mental evaluation and suffered trauma mentally and physically, that quite honestly I’m lucky to have lived through.

May 2, 2016

response trauma
Click this image to see the trauma being spoken of.

Two years later, May 2, 2016, the government’s response to that trauma was due. Unfortunately they have asked for and received a delay until May 27th.

I don’t know if any of those dates matter in the scheme of things, just that I have been deep in thought that 2 years ago at this exact time I was alone in a very cold cell for the longest most terrifying days of my life, and didn’t know to what extents the government may go or when the nightmare would end.

Grateful

Looking forward to today I am so grateful to be at FCI Dublin.  I’m grateful there are protections in place to protect an inmate and regulations and laws that the BOP follows. I’m grateful that I have a job that I love and that I work for a woman whom I trust and admire deeply.  I’m grateful for the support from my family, and so grateful for all of your love and support.

Neighbors reached out several months ago and provided plane tickets for my family to visit me.   When they booked the flights 2 months ago no one knew that I would be discouraged because the government delayed their response but I think the timing is remarkable and I really don’t believe in coincidences anymore.

Today I have attorneys that I trust fighting vigorously on my behalf which is something that I certainly didn’t have while I was suffering in county jail.  Today I have a voice, and today I have a sure knowledge that I am protected by a loving Father in Heaven.

I know who I am today, and I have hope for a brighter future.  I also know that being uncomfortable for a manageable amount of time in order to have a better future is how we grow.  I am so grateful for the good in my life today and I want you all to know how meaningful you are to me, how much I appreciate your support.  I would never have gotten through the pain of being separated from my family and the trauma issues that I came to prison with without the love of my Father in Heaven, and in many cases he has worked through all of you.

I know that there are many people who read my blog from all walks of life, including many BOP employees, and t is my hope that if you do in fact work in the prison system that you will know what a difference you can make in the lives of the inmates.  How kindness to us at the right time can change everything. The good officers and staff members, and there are many, set the tone on a prison compound and I have personally witnessed how a few really good staff members can make all the difference.  Some that I have come into contact with are exceptional and deserve to be noticed. I love many of the women in prison, but I have found such healing in the kind words officers and staff members have offered me over the last year, so many unsung hero’s!  I honor you and want you to know that you make a difference, thank you for your service.  As always I will keep you all posted on what comes next:)